|goofy pre-race pose|
Hold on...let me start by saying I feel "good" about today's results. I mean I don't like what happened, but it's what I expected. I got exactly the result I should have gotten for the training effort, planning and mental preparations I put forth. Could I have done better? Yes, I'm sure I could have. How do I know? I was talking and laughing the whole time. I wasn't struggling most of the time. I was very relaxed. I left the race thinking I could probably go run another 10 miles fairly easily. I came home, weeded the flower beds, mowed the lawn and didn't even feel like I had really worked out. Did I get what I planned for? Yes. My plan was to keep my heart rate right at 170 the whole time (except for climbing Mountainwood), and I did just that.
This is the third year I've run this course with out a strategy. Not again. Next year I will have a plan for how I want to RACE this event! I know the course, I know how I run it. I will prepare and I will blow my time out of the water. Mark my words.
But...back to the race...I had a sinus infection all last week. I finally went to the doctor and got a steroid shot and some meds on Thursday. That would have been bad enough, but I woke up this morning with a rolling stomach. Reading last year's recap, I see that was the case then, too, but I think for very different reasons. Last year I attributed my stomach issues to nerves. I can remember getting ready for the race the night before and being so anxious. This year, I actually forgot to pick up my packet! I went this morning to get it and ended up helping out because there was only one guy trying to get packets and tshirts for a growing number of participants!
|Can you spot me?|
Looking back on it, there's a SLIM chance I might have been able to hang on to her but it would have hurt and I hadn't planned to, or expected to, hurt today. I "wanted" to break an hour, but I also knew I had not been running a lot lately, I hadn't planned or trained, I hadn't prepared mentally...I hadn't made the "training deposits" necessary in order to expect to be able to make a "race withdrawal" in the amount of a sub-60:00 Cotton Row 10K!
I think part of why I get so upset with my results is that no matter what kind of training I have done, no matter what kind of preparations I have made, and no matter what I am mentally ready for, I expect to have a different outcome than what matches with reality.
Let me try to explain something I haven't quite put my finger on just yet...
Last year I didn't train to race a 10K, certainly not Cotton Row (it's not an easy course). Somehow I expected to break an hour out of sheer will. I had run a sub-30 5K but really beyond that I didn't have any training that would warrant realistically expecting a sub-60 Cotton Row result and yet, I did. I hadn't planned mentally, I didn't have a race strategy, I just thought I could go run and get to the finish in under an hour. My blog post says I was happy with the result, but that's not the way I remember it. I remember feeling mostly okay at the finish, disappointed, but okay. But as time went on, I was more and more upset over that stinking 24 seconds...thinking about all of the things I could have done on race day to have had a better outcome.
I have noticed that I go into races with a certain set of stated expectations, and another set of unspoken ones. I may meet my stated expectations (which usually match up with reality fairly well), but when I don't meet my unspoken set of desires for myself I am upset (if you know me you know that's the case pretty much all the time).
|right before I tossed my water bottle|
I will say as soon as I finished the race and realized I missed breaking an hour by 20 seconds I was VERY UPSET....but only for a few minutes. After I thought about it I decided there was no reason for those feelings. I had a good time and my result matched what I had trained and planned for.
The key for me is to put in the training and planning...and, I'm certain I'll get exactly the result I should!
- 2010 -- 1:18:23 (gun time) 86/100 age group and 1920/2048 overall
- 2011 -- 1:00:24 (chip time) 39/111 age group and 930/1878 overall
- 2012 -- 1:00:20 (chip time) 40/125 age group and 1076/2013 overall
|headed to the finish line|
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