Mark 12:31 tells me I am to "love your neighbor as yourself."
I remember the first time I heard that verse. I asked the question "but what if I hate myself?
It wasn't a rhetorical question. I was serious.
I've worked hard since that time to love my neighbor but loving myself isn't nearly as easy.
My husband HATES when people say "you have to love yourself" but I ask him every time we get into the discussion ....what about that verst? It implies that you need to love yourself first. He always says that is not what the verse means.
I think he's wrong. I think the verse assumes that we DO love ourselves more than we love others. We put ourselves first, we think of ourselves first, we care for ourselves first...
But what if we don't...
I recently had a very dear friend tell me I need to love myself more. This friend said "I'm going to check in with you once a week to make sure you are doing something each week to that end."
This is my report for this past week:
Things I did to love ME...
I made/went to a therapy appointment.
I invited A LOT of people to a "We'll be seeing you" party* so I could get and give hugs.
I bought myself a bike that I really wanted but really did NOT need!
I made sure to eat...this seems crazy but I have been really busy so eating has taken a back seat on some days.
I wrote in my journal.
I found a new therapist in Michigan*.
By the way, if you know me in real life...*we are moving to Michigan in about 10 days!!!!! If you know me well, check your Facebook event invites because chances are high that you were invited to the party.
Hold on, we are going on a ride.....
